i have had a few flings with guys where we weren’t actually in an official relationship but were definitely doing more than just fucking around and when they eventually started pulling away or just flat out started to ignore me i never tried to find out what happened and i put a lot of effort into making sure that they didn’t think they had upset me or even effected me in anyway, when in fact i cried a lot and my friends and the internet had to deal with me. i didn’t want them to think i was emotional or crazy in anyway when all i wanted to do was scream at them for being pieces of shit. anyway i going to stop doing this because
cut to a few months in the future where these same guys start speaking to me again and i let them, they want to be pals, i can do that, but eventually they begin to take days to reply, they forget important dates, they make plans and then they don’t show up, and they think that it is okay because i have never been mad or upset before. fuck off, no. i am so done suppressing my emotions just because some shit guys don’t know how to handle them.
